Wanda, I am sorry for what you are going through. It is obvious that you love your husband and care about your marriage. Although I have not had to deal with the porn aspect or my H leaving, I do have a situation where my partner believes that the problem is all mine, refuses counseling, and engages in sex that is disconnected and unappealing to me. I do not have advice to offer, but I have plenty of compassion for you and your situation.