I know I need to get stuff out but I really don't even know what to say anymore.
I'm not in my "happy" place anymore. I've been allowing H to drag me down and it all has to do with finances also because I am scared for mine and my children's future.
He's being mean and nasty and resentful - he hates that I get to live in our home with our children. Told me the other day he wishes he could tell me to get the "F" out of the house and have me move into his condo and he'll stay at the house with the kids since he's paying for it anyway. He told me he can't afford to pay the mortgage anymore. He wants us to file personal bankruptcy. Where he used to appreciate me having a job and carrying all of our health benefits, now he's become resentful to me because I don't make alot of money at my job and he still has to support ME - that's what he calls it - that's all he ever says to me - is I HAVE TO PAY YOU. He's being awful. I told him "just because you decided to leave doesn't mean that all of our bills disappeared!" He says "I F-ING KNOW THAT!"
Dealing with a person who is so irrational, doesn't make any sense, and is extremely hot-headed at the same time is just awful. I wish he would go away but I know that isn't possible. I don't deserve how mean he is being to me.
Like yesterday, I had to let him know that we needed $$ in the account, because I had to send out his car payment, son's college fund is being automatically withdrawn (and he already knew this stuff last week) but still hadn't put any money in account, so I had to remind him. His reply to me was "Yes ma'am, I'll get right on it!"
