Hope and Sandi your insight is most welcomed. I love to hear a woman's point of view.
Spoke to my mom today for a few hours and again last night. This was the first time I have really spoken to her in 3 months. I have been holding in all my anger and resentment towards her because I felt she played a big part in our separation. We spoke frankly and with no punches being held back, but it was nice to let a lot of things off my chest.
At the end we both feel a little better. She had her point of view and I tried to explain my W and mine.
She said she saw a lot that she did not like and I should stop walking around with so much guilt. "We all make mistakes but I don't understand the rush in getting a D. If I was the problem and now I am gone why be so stubborn and not even give yourself the chance to save your marriage. When you love a man you fight to keep him and when you feel like you can't fight anymore you take a break but you never give up hope. I have an enormous amount of guilt because of what has happened and I loved W as a daughter. She was always very good to me. All I wanted was a little bit of honesty when I asked if I was the problem. I would have left right away. I hate D and if things could be saved they should be. But a woman that acts this quickly and so impulsively lacks the love for a man. You are hurt and you feel betrayed but yet here you stand willing to work things out. Why? Because you love her!"
I tend to agree somewhat with what she says. She went on to say this "I am seeing a shrink because I am depressed and feel responsible. But I have to admit I want to go to OK and meet with W to have a face to face with her. Not to convince her to change her mind but to let her know my feelings and to maybe pass on a little bit of wisdom I have learned in my 70yrs of life. Because nothing is sadder than two people who love each other going there separate ways because of stubbornness and pride. When changes are made and there is still love all is possible"
At this point trust me when I say that I have pretty much admitted to myself that the end is near. This is something my mom feels like she wants to do for her own sanity. So here is my question to you guys. Is this a good idea? Should she?
