Like Jimbo, you described me too. The truth is, you do have the strength, but you're scared. You mentioned getting older in one of your posts and alot of us know the fear of not being 20 or 30 or even 40 something. I'm in my 50's and raising 2 D's (one of whom has had some really serious psych stuff going on) and if I can do it, so can you. You really are stronger than you know.
Does that mean I don't think about having someone to share my blessings and burdens with? Of course I do. Sometimes the loneliness blindsides me, but that's only sometimes.
It isn't easy and there are times I really think I'm done with it. That's when I don't do (or say) anything and I just sit with it. When it reaches the point I don't come back from that thought, then I will act. Do I have a snowballs shance? Who knows and the truth is, it really doesn't matter so much anymore. I do what I do for myself and my D's.
