WS, thank you for your words. I truly hope he does not regret the beautiful children that we have. H did tell me upon leaving that he had to before he resented the kids and I. He made it very clear that the kids were mine. He said it in a way that made me believe he viewed that as my punishment for having them.
The children are my greatest blessings. I feel sorry for H and my kids that he is missing out on what great people they are and what is ahead for them. Even when he spends time with the girls they report that he is not really there.
I agree that the MLCer ends up in a very twisted world. I thank God it is something that I don't wake up in.
Mila, thank you. No where in RL right now can I find anyone who understands or accepts MLC as real. They believe I'm making excuses for H. I tell them it is NOT an excuse, but it is an explanation. I am not going to bother anymore, because my energy has to be focused on getting through the D process with what I need to live the rest of my life. I don't need to be fighting RL family and friends and my H.
Thank God for this board and the compassion and understanding I find here. Thank you all.
