God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
I've known the part quoted above for some time, but I didn't know there was more. And, as a person of faith, I have been "pursued" daily over the past four days by the idea that I need to learn to surrender my will to God's. To stop freaking out over the decline of my marriage, and instead just do my best to reconcile while living with the faith that whatever is in store for me/us will somehow be okay. But that I have put my husband at the center of my life and God wants that priority back. I came downstairs this morning, noticed that the two things on my mantel in the living room are (1) a framed photo of my husband from our wedding day, and (2) a collage of leaves and a love note my husband sent with them right after we gave up and said we would get divorced, and I thought that I needed to think of something to put in that central place in my home that would remind me of my faith, too. Then I popped open my computer, saw the serenity prayer subject line, bumped into that word “surrender” again, and realized that the full version of that prayer would make a great new centerpiece for my mantel. What I WANT God to give me is a miraculous restoration of my marriage. But it is a unique blessing to feel like he has been focusing on ME for the past four days. Thanks for your part in that.
M: 43 H: 44 M: 12.5 if the 5.5 year separation counts Bomb (I dropped it): Dec '07 H said finit: Jun '10 I moved on: May '13
