...but I will be truthful, I don't know that I have the personal strength, toughness, and thick skin I need to see this through with an uncertain result. I am doubtful about my ability.
Scylla, forgive me for jumping in here, but I have followed your thread.
This ^^^^ quote is exactly why we here believe you should slow down, make no decisions right now, and work on healing from the pain and building yourself back up. The point is not to "see it through," or even to consider the result right now. The point is to find that strength, that toughness, that resilience that will allow you to heal fully from this, find some measure of peace and acceptance, and go forward making decisions proactively rather than reactively. If you do not do this, it is likely that you will be forever angry and bitter about how you have been treated, and carry that baggage into any new relationship you enter into. That is not fair to anyone.
DB is a long-term process, but it is for you and you alone. It really has nothing to do with your H or your M. If your H comes around, and you still want him back, fine, but if he doesn't or you don't, you will be a whole and healthy person going forward.
Reread you thread, Scylla. You have many experienced (if not old, like me LOL) DBers posting to you, and they know what works. Open your heart and mind to see things in a different way. You will not be sorry.
M 65 H 64 T 39 & M 36 @ S 12/08 Two Ds
Do you know that the harder thing to do and the right thing to do are usually the same thing? Nothing that has meaning is easy. ~ The Weather Man
