My Story - He Cheated while I was Pregnant

[AJM80]

Ok, so babies went to a doctor tonight. They've been sick and I started to worry about the 6 month old having trouble breathing at night. Emailed husband to let him know we were done at drs. He called to get the update.

I asked him to let me know how his therapy appt (the 1st goes tomorrow) and he broke down telling me his mom told him there is depression in the family. He's worried this will happen to our kids, he said he told her he's really been missing us lately, and feels like he's hopeless and a failure and upset that he's not the person he thought he was. He finally told me why he went off the tracks. When he felt like he failed at our goals and couldn't get a job and just checked out of the relationship at a time when we were both stressed and unhappy with our situations.

I don't know what this will mean. He said he was going to call his mom back to talk about family history. He said we'd talk more weds when he comes to visit the kids. He said he'd let me know how therapy goes. He said he doesn't think he's suicidal.

He did not say anything about reconciling or breaking up with the OW. He said he shouldn't talk to me about this/put this on me. I'm just glad if nothing else good comes out of this that he was honest about what pushed him over the edge and how he bad he feels today about what he did.

So now what? I'm not sending him texts or calling him till he calls me tomorrow, I'm not going to mother him or just forget that I need to be happy/GAL too and not get all emotionally tied up in this day to day stuff.