Peace, I think your sitch is one of the most painful. I do hope that your X reaches out to your kids at least. I believe that kids carry that rejection with them.
Trusting, If he really wanted to be the first to take you there, then he would be, you know?
I think your X shows signs of maturity, but they are vague and not followed with action yet. I have had small flashes of maturity, but they are weak and not enough to make X attractive.
M: 16 years Bomb 4/07 OW 20s long gone Divorced 11/09 I remarried New Guy Cooperative r w/X regarding D