IB, yes, they are tough, although once I figured out why I had been so down for the last few weeks, recognized it for what it was, and gave myself a talking to, I started to feel better.
CW, I hate them, too, now that I see what they can do to you.
Jack, what bothered me was not the increased contact so much, but that each time I was a little more open and generous, it seemed I was quickly slapped with another in-my-face reminder that he is still very much with OW. I don't think H did these things to hurt me on purpose, but he clearly didn't try to protect me from them, either. I guess I expected to have my kindness returned with a little more care on his part, which is, of course, ridiculous under the circumstances. I'm in the process of killing that right now, and stepping back a bit should help.
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Do you know that the harder thing to do and the right thing to do are usually the same thing? Nothing that has meaning is easy. ~ The Weather Man
