I'm freaking out. I had a therapy appointment today and she started talking about maybe he's got something major he's hiding based on a few behaviors I mentioned. How is that helping me? She's been a great therapist, but now I am in a spin. I sent him a text, joking that she'd thrown out that he was on Speed or involved with the Mafia. He wrote back, no illegal drugs or activity. I wrote back, Haha, I told her you're the guy burying people out on Long Island and you sell drugs to kindergardners (sort of dark humor, he'd appreciate)....
Now I want to call him and have a heart to heart. My problem with DB'ing is there's no talking/questioning....which is probably why it works...If I went after him everytime I wanted to talk, we would probably be in court already. Is there a time/place for that in all this? Or do I wait till we're together and "piecing"? Or divorced and done - then I can ask for closure on this episode of my life/our relationship?
Faith is, at one and the same time, absolutely necessary and altogether impossible. --Stanislaw Lem
