Can't seem to tell what stage or what i'm doing

[Metal]

Friday I "went out", and went to a "Celebrate Recovery" meeting (kind of like a Christian AA, but they include lots of stuff besides alcohol). Amazing how enlightening it was. I actually began to see my illness in the problems of our marriage. Before Friday, I had been watching W. What she said and did, and not really looking at myself. Something clicked for me though, that I have been part of a sick-marriage-system. Codependant, and unhealthy.. and I needed to get myself whole. So, I'm back to praying, and I'm reading the serenity prayer, which I have to say, is bigtime detachment oriented. W, on the other hand hasn't changed a bit, and is still playing drama, and still doing the MLC thing. I'm just going to keep backing off, and get myself fixed.