Beyond Depression..but still a losing battle?

[Lucky11too]

I'm alive over here, but just somewhat surviving. I've been working 60 hour weeks, so not getting to see S nearly as much as I want. Then to add to it all, last weekend, S was super sick with a 103 fever and has just been waking up alot during the night. My mom took night duty for me for a couple of nights just so I could get some rest. I still ended up getting sick myself though, so I'm still fighting a sore throat and cough. But the topper of all this was during all of this too, a week ago, I get the early morning text from H that he just can't continue going on as he has nothing left to live for. Oh no, not again! He had valid points in one way but still, he can't kill himself. His only grounding tie has been S, but as he said, S doesn't even like him (totally true, but what does he expect, when he's hardly ever around & when he is around, he's still very absent). I talked him down out of it, but he's still a very broken man. It puts me in a hard spot too b/c I can't (like I wanted) be just like, it's MC or D right now. It's a very delicate situation. He ended up going back to the dr that same day and they put him on a new med, but he has yet to try it yet (ultimate procrastinator). It's hard, I don't want to be in limbo land anymore, but at this point, I don't know how to get out of it. I'm just trying to deal with everything right now with all the work stress and home stress, but it's definitely tough. So we'll see... =/