I WILL Attain my Goals - Personal and M

[FellOnBlackDays]

Denver,
I am sorry that I haven't been here for you this weekend. I had quite a mess on my hands and couldn't get to the computer. I am actaully hiding from my W right now. I will post details tonight.

None the less, I am so very sorry about your news. But your friends are right. Make sure the information is accurate. Don't put yourself through all this pain for something that might not be true. I don't really know how you will confirm the information, but I would try before you destroy yourself with grief.

Yes, this is not easy. I still vividly remember the day I found the cell bill and saw that my W had exchanged over 300 messages in four days with OM. I wanted to throw up. The worst part is that I tried twice during that period to text her and she ignored me. She texted him before and after my text. You could see it on the bill. I was devastated. But, look where I am now. I have had three face-to-face meetings with my W in the past week. She has apologized for her behavior and I have taken some control back by staying true to my DB'ing.

I never thought I would say this, but get off the computer for a spell. Call a friend and go do something. Sitting here and focusing on this right now might actually not be good for you. Remember, when the darkness comes, change your environment. Go play some golf, go to the gym, go to a sports bar and watch the games on today. While you are there, strike up a conversation with a stranger. This is an order, mister. GO DO SOMETHING FOR YOU RIGHT NOW AND DON'T THINK ABOUT HER WHILE YOU ARE DOING IT! Got it!

Hang in there, my man. Post when you get back and let us know how you are feeling. I am willing to bet you will feel better.

Your friend and fellow B.I.T.S.

FOBD