Thanks for the kind words Courageous and 2Step.

You all are correct, I let myself have 'expectations' and set myself up for a fall.

You are also right 2Step... the imagination can make things much worse.

There is a further update that has confused me more about sitch. I will post it later.

M 43
X 38
T 13
W moves out of home 11/2010
Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012
I request divorce 5/2012
W moves home 6/2012
Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015
I leave 3/2016
process of divorce