But no one said DBing was easy. It certainly is a test of endurance, of patience, and most importantly of Love.
Love this!
Joel, there is something that keeps your W from proceeding further away from you, but also something that keeps her from loving you. Your sitch is not new and it seems that with how you are handling things now she will start taking peeks in the door you have left open for her. Time and patience are your friends.
My H did everything to leave except take the final step to file and make it legal. There is NO one from this board that encouraged me to stay with him, they said I should move on. But for me as long as he could not take that step to get rid of me I wasn't going to either. Quite honestly, I never stopped loving him but there were plenty of days I had to dig deep to keep my love alive. There were days the pain was so bad I was physically ill.
I learned more patience and stamina and endurance than I ever knew was possible. My H is here now, we are growing forward together again. The road is very long, but rewarding.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.