It makes a lot of sense. I am trying very hard to get there. Get off the roller coaster, so to speak. So far I've managed to at least appear that I am off the roller coaster. I am still reacting to much to H's words and actions. I just don't show it anymore.
I also don't try to look at the good in my H right now. I probably need to try that. I want my M back, but I don't know if I want my H back anymore if that makes any sense. I've lost so much trust and faith in him. I don't think very highly of him anymore. Did you go through this? If so, how do you get through that piece?
I really drew a lot of strength from your patience and kindness and persistence. I am sitting here crying about 3 months and I saw your posts and it was really inspirational. I have been reading a lot of about God's unconditional love and trying to emulate it. I don't have the first clue what that is. Obviously, I have lots of work to do.
Thank you for the thoughtful responses. It does make a lot of sense. Stay strong. I think you've made a lot of progress and I am so glad to see that you're seeing your sons' games.
