well grr...I am back here for the second time and I really can't tell you if it is going to work or not. I love the support here but hate having to be here.

What I do know is that there is some wonderful people here with some great advice. The more I read in here and the more I DB the stronger I get. This journey we are all on is really about ourselves. Doing what is best for us, not anyone else. I know for myself that I have lost who i was. Who I used to be...That is why I am here. i do not know if my H and I will ever be together again (not sure if I want H again) but if for whatever reason we did get back together, I will be a better person when it happens.

I am truly sorry that you find yourself here again. It is a rough road to be on. We are all here so keep posting!


Me:35, 2 kids from PR
H: 37, 2 kids with me
T: 15 years
M: 8 years in Feb.
Second walk out: 14-01-2011
H had PA: 2007