Lighthouse lit till WAW comes out of fog.

[habitacker]

Wife had to work today until 2. At 2 I loaded up the kids and took them to a indoor water park. I wanted my W to come home to a empty house so she could have some time to herself.
Her brother showed up with his kids, and everyone had a great time. I even caught myself checking out a few hotties. I am only human.
We got home around 6:30 and W was in the basement on the computer as usual. I found it strange that she never called or anything to find out where the kids were. Then she told me she had talked to her mom and that she told her where we were. Her mom had been watching the kids in the morning.
She almost sounded a little fussy, like I should of left a note or something. I had thought about it, but said the heck with it because she never leaves me one.

The rest of the evening was typical. Same as usual.

Not to long ago everyone went to bed. I really did not want to even get on the computer tonight. For some reason I was avoiding this site. Maybe just burnt out.

I spent about an hour with my dog. He is a german shepard that is afraid to go down steps. So I sit at the bottom of the steps, and he drops his ball down, and I throw it back up. WoW.

I felt like Steve McQueen in the movie the Great Escape. When he keeps getting thrown in the prison camp cooler, and bounces his baseball against the wall for months at a time just to occupy himself in prison. If anyone has seen the movie they would know what I am talking about.

Anyway, it is a really exciting Saturday night. Basically a blizzard out, and I don't want to do anything anyway. When the weather is like this I am supposed to be stuck in the house, having a romantic time, and ML to my wife. Man I want to go into that bedroom so bad. I even miss the way our bedding feels. I have never thought about something like that before. I will not go in though, I am to scared of whatever that thing is in my bed.(just kidding)

Tomorrow, W teaches sunday school before church, and then I go to church. (by myself). Afterwards I was thinking of taking the kids somewhere again, weather permitting.

The thing is my W would probably come along, but I don't think I want her to. I mean, I want her to, but not the way she is now. I am tired of it, she is so tense and uncomfortable, it ruins it.

If she wants to come, which she usually does, what should I do? What if I tell her I would rather she doesn't? Or, if you are coming with, you need to be positive and get over this tense stuff around me, and try to be happy, otherwise you just make me tense, and that just ruins it for everybody. That is what I would love to say, but I am sure I will be told not to.

Well gonna stop there. Bring on another day.