We went to MC once during our initial separation - and neither of us felt it was helpful (counselor not trained in preserving marriages). I had my first phone consult with a DB counselor on Friday. It was helpful.
My H says he started emails due to stress. Admits this isn't an excuse, and is a poor way to deal with stress. When I asked him if he wants to be the guy who can talk to/email, etc. anyone he wants - basically a single guy - he says no.
I guess I just don't understand why he's still married to me.
He has said that I get on his nerves and he has shown quite a bit of resentment and anger towards me in general.
He is unaware that I know about his latest "friend".
Last time, I was desperate to have him back, but this time I feel flat. DB counselor said this is an appropriate defense mechanism, but it feels weird.
I come from a divorced family, and truly do not want this for my children. I am just skeptical at this point that things will ever be any different. Feel that H will always be having some sort of R with another.
