My Story - He Cheated while I was Pregnant

[AJM80]

Thanks! Before baby, we were intimate regularly until I went off the pill. I needed a break from it for a couple reasons/had been working a lot and hadnt found a new dr and he resented using condoms and felt pressured to have kids. Overall, I feel like we worked through those issues. Especially when he decided he was ready to have a baby and I agreed I was ready too - that was tons of fun and we did pretty well during the preg too - I felt loved and cared for and I think he did too. After baby was very SSM _ he'd push me away, though, not vice versa. I tried not to pressure him and make it something to fight about.

Somethings he said - we never have sex, it feels like death by a thousand cuts, I love you, but i'm not in love with you, you're my best friend, i feel like we're roommates, I feel like when i look at my resume - you did 2/3rds of it - not me, i've been thinking about divorce for a long time - since before we had kids, i took you for granted, I feel mothered/smothered, he said I should go live closer to my parents and raise our kids there/we'd be happier/better off that way. He's said he doesn't feel heard, I emasculate him....It's depressing to write about...I can see his point on some of these things, but I also feel angry (in a sort of detached, not going to let it rule my world way) about how he treated me and pushed me away. To the point of cheating as an "atomic bomb" to end things.