So, I just took the Dog out for a quick walk. Of course, thinking over the convo w/H. I'm feeling low now...yes, he called blah blah blah...but, I could hear in his how removed he was. Not to mention last Thursday(his only day off) he did come get her cause he was too tired??? I got the sense he wanted to come get her cause, he does not want to over here on his day off again. Which makes me think something is going on for sure. I'm starting to think he is already seeing someone???!!!!
I also now realize, when he picks up the dog. He has no reason any longer to have any further contact with me. As well as, I may not see my Dog again. It could be the last time..
I'm not crushed again....I was having a good day. I laughed today!! Several times even...I went in to work for a bit, took the dog w/me, I went and checked out the cute shops around town. Even picked up a few things for me! I stopped on the street to talk to complete strangers and enjoyed myself.
Now, here I am...feeling that H is not coming back EVER..I'm praying of course...I'm praying for him too...
But, jusst when I think this wound is healing over a bit...OUCH someone pulls the band aide off!!!
Feeling down....Church can't come soon enough...
Me: 40 H: 39 M: 17 yrs - Together 18 1/2yrs No kids Seperated: May 18, 2006 EA/Poss PA with OW for 6 months prior to leaving. 2nd Bomb dropped: Dec. 23, 2010
