Keep posting and posting. It will help you! I am not new to these boards but I am new this time around. just getting back into DBing again. Try to stay as positive as you can and don't worry about what other people are thinking. Change for yourself and only for you, It doesn't work any other way!
I am so sorry you are in pain. This is a great community for support. Everyone here knows what it feels like and everyone just wants to help.
Me:35, 2 kids from PR H: 37, 2 kids with me T: 15 years M: 8 years in Feb. Second walk out: 14-01-2011 H had PA: 2007