I have done everything wrong....

[islander]

Thanks. You are right about not packing the rest of her stuff for her. I am glad I did not contact her earlier to. I know I still love her with everyhing that I am, and that I forgive her too. I find I have to forgive her every day several times a day. Sometimes I hold it in for a while , but I know at the end o the day I would give anything for a chance to make things right with her. And that is only bc the sum total of our relationship was good, just not the last 9 months or so. Different W different sitch I might not be willing to do the same.

And you are dead right in your first paragraph. I feel there is no way that if my wife left that she is coming back. I have never known her to flip flop big decisions. Then she would have to admit she was wrong. I feel she thinks if would be easier to continue on this path and act lime she was happy than to put in some real work and actually find happiness.

I do feel as if things are snowballing and progressing to a point of no return in her mind. That is me reading her mind. Then she went out of town today and tomorrow for a trip with a group of people from work. OM is atleast included in the group or they went off together. Bad either way. again this is the most painful time in my entire life, and I know everybody understands that. I am desperately seeking answers that I know I ultimately have to find within myself.