"When thou passeth through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee." - Isaiah 43:2
"Fear thou not; for I am with the; be not dismayed; for I am thy god; I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness." - Isaiah 41:10
"And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain; for the former things are passed away."
Sweetie, please listen to me... this is a horrible thing that has happened. Absolutely horrible and there really isn't much comfort right this second. But please do not feel that anyone or anything was paying anyone back. Your friend obviously is a wonderful man and his brother sounds equally wonderful. We do not understand God's ways. I don't pretend that I do, at least. But, he wants to be good to us. He wants to help us. I cannot understand why you are in such horrible pain and not being relieved of it right now. I just want your peace so much. But, there is a plan for you. A plan that you cannot imagine and it will be great. You were brought here and you don't have the first clue how much you have lifted people's spirits. You don't have a clue who you might have saved from making a horrible mistake and ruining their lives. God turned this bad situation into some good. You have helped so many people already. You turned your pain into good.
Please do not give up on your hopes. As you said, you are not thinking clearly. I can hear your desperation loud and clear. I know that feeling. And I promise you, you ARE going to get through this. You ARE. The sun is going to shine on your life. In the meantime, stay in prayer. Ask for prayers.
