E.T. phoned home!!!

[Augtan]

Thanks seeking, I tried a few times and figured out they were disable, not sure why, but I have noticed that people talk like they have spoken or emailed with people they met on here, how do you do that?

EverHopful, I have made progress, but I had a major set back this week, it is a long story, but I completely lost it with my XH on the phone over an issue with D18 involving lying, I hate lying and have been lied to so much by both of them regarding OW#2 who is a complete psycho...and when I say that, I mean truly "single white female" psycho. OW#1 was bad, and she was the wh*re that helped break up my marriage so she is not a good person and lost custody of her son, it goes on and on with her too, but this one is beyond what you would even believe. Anyway, I called sobbing to XH about it all and that was a huge set back. I will say that XH was very, very nice and supportive about it, he didn't do the lying so it wasn't his fault, he listened to me and tried to calm me down, etc. He use to just hangs up on me, but I haven't freaked on him in awhile so.... I sent him an email apologizing to him and informing him that I had discussed it all with D18 and had apologized to her too for getting so upset. I told him I knew that I was allowing someone else to control my emotions and that I know I am the only one I can control and will continue to work on not allowing myself to get to that place again. He just emailed back "thanks..please love D18, I miss her soooo much" I emailed back that I think he misses all of the kids and should just move up here to be with them. He emailed back the amount he is making on side jobs and that he would lose all that if he left there. So, he is still in the tunnel and I am just leaving him alone. And, I will handle all issues with the kids on my own, although he was supportive, I am just going to let him be and see what happens.

In the meantime, I went out with friends last night, had some fun. Reconnected with a high school friend on facebook who is a sweet guy and almost divorced, we are going to meet up next week to catch up.

Walking down the hall with the door open, walking faster and faster and the wind just might close the door. I pray for XH each day, sometimes a couple of times a day. I just want God to heal his pain, he has been through enough in his life, he needs peace and happiness, I wish he would seek it from his family that loves him (me and his kids) and God, but that is up to him.

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