Just an update. The meds have been helping a lot. I think I slept through most of xmas and the first few weeks of January. My IC explained that it's my body 'coming down' from using adrenalin so extensively for energy, and settling down into a more normal rhythm. The last week has been a little better, not needing so many long naps through the day. But I find my moods still terribly susceptible to negative or unsuccessful interactions with H. CL's post this morning described it very well. Conflict begins. I withdraw to protect myself rather than staying present and saying what I need to, to express my side of conflict. And then, my mood, and energy plummets. While self-blame and frustration and worry that I've made the wrong decision to stay in the M, takes over. This [censored].
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.
