Thanks FOBD for your concern. I have not lost the weight correctly for sure. I'll be honest, there are days that I do not eat at all. But, I'm getting better. I did eat yesterday 3 meals! Yes, chicken and veggies too! smile In my normal state I love to cook. So, I'm forcing myself. But, its hard I just have no desire to eat. But, I promise I will keep trying.

I also take these crazy long walks, I don't even realize I have walked MILES! I just get home and realize I've been gone for hours!

@ Rabbit, your right about it all. I know this..but, its so hard to let go. I'm doing it, I have no other option. But, ita so hard to keep my emotions in check. I'm trying to be the rock star I usually am at work. But, I cant keep my focus...so, I tell myself...this is all ya got...come on!

Like many others, I'm so close to it all. That I can't seem to make the right decisions when he does text or call or whatever. I'm the strong one in life. I'm the one that folks lean on....but, I'm just totally knocked down! I'm trying to get back up, regain myself, my love for life, my dedication to the LORD.

So, please yall keep it coming...I need to know that folks are out there that feel what I do. That I'm not alone...cause, thats the hardest part. The ALONE part...

I'm praying for us all...peace and comfort!

Me: 40 H: 39
M: 17 yrs - Together 18 1/2yrs
No kids
Seperated: May 18, 2006
EA/Poss PA with OW for 6 months prior to leaving.
2nd Bomb dropped: Dec. 23, 2010