Alamo I am going to keep doing this as much as I can. The worst part is that D7 notices things. She does not understand. I just keep telling her its not her fault and I love her.
So H has not texted me all night. What a surprise. It is Friday after all. I am only a little bitter because in all reality I do not want to hear from this alien that I call my H. Just some mixed feelings there. He did call earlier to talk to D7 and I had answered the phone. he had that "i miss you" tone in his voice. I didn't and couldn't listen to it. I handed the phone to D as soon as I heard him. It just felt weird.
Anyways it has been a quiet night. S11 went snowboarding and had a great time. Watched a movie with S17 and D. S15 was hanging out with girlfriend. The one thing I have really been enjoying since H left is the calmness in the house. Kids are not fighting. I am not walking on eggshells and everyone just seems so much more peaceful. It makes it really hard to want H back. Really mixed emotions today.
Me:35, 2 kids from PR H: 37, 2 kids with me T: 15 years M: 8 years in Feb. Second walk out: 14-01-2011 H had PA: 2007
