Feeling kind of down today not really sure why. I've been thinking about different times of the day that affect me and picking up my daughter from school and coming home is always so hard. I feel responsible for destroying her world, now she has no mother and for a little girl of just 10 it is so devastating.
I get angry so very angry that W has done this. All she remembers are the things that I didn't do but can't remember what I have done. Last night when we spoke I mentioned the WAW video and she said "I would watch it but since you gave me the laptop which you know doesn't work I can't" So I sent it to her on the iphone.
I have taken some serious steps to understand where she is coming from and to really get to know her the only problem she feels as if she was right and now I am seeing it for the first time. However as I learn about her I also learn about myself and I realize I am not that abnormal. If she ever takes the time to learn about me she would understand why I reacted certain ways and her resentment will begin to thaw.
I don't fellas! She did respond to the video and said "I watched the video. Interesting......."
I gave her Men are from Mars book and she said at one point she would read it. But when? In two years? By that time do I even want her back? Basically she will be a better W for someone else. Great for me!
