Need ideas.

[Sad_but_happy]

Not Faith Harrier... Not yet! She broke my trust.

So what do I do?

1. I check the cell phone records.

2. I check her phone to see the internet history to see if she logged into secret email account.

3. I check her texts (which coincide with the phone records).

4. I drive by her work to make sure she is there.

5. I call her in the middle of the day when I get anxious.

6. I've had a key logger for months. I have found NOTHING!


All these practices are getting less and less as the days pass. Also, keep in mind that she is warm to me and more and more affectionate. I don't believe she would be that way if she was getting more attached to OM.

I do none of this with her knowlege. She has no idea. I believe if I asked her permission and kept doing it she would get tired of me not trusting her. Obviously she should expect me not to trust but it does add pressure if you continually don't trust. So why tell her?

I understand that this is no way yo live, but I need to make sure my boundaries are being respected. Today was my best day since the bomb cause not only is she saying that she wants to work it out, she is really showing it. And I feel the trust being restored.

Could she get a Trac Phone or log in somewhere else? Sure. But I can't control everything...