I have done everything wrong....

[islander]

She moved out while I was at work today. I could have left but chose not to because I knew nothing good would have came from it. But we spoke on the phone and nothing good came of that either and there were some texts messages exchanged, but more were sent than received.

I completely broke down. My entire life and purpose for being (up to this point) just packed up and walked out the door. Now I have to go home and let it hit me again when I see everything missing, an empty living room, etc.

I feel like I never read DR based on my actions. How in the world can I act as if when everything is crashing down on me at once. Everybody makes good points, but it seems impossible to me today. I thought I was starting to detach until this week when she left. Right now I have no idea what I am going to do or what I should do.

I only know that my life is never going to be the same again, no matter what happens. My family was my life, and I don't know what to do or how to get through this most painful time in my life.

She is coming over tuesday am to go over our bills. I know I need to be strong, but if today is any indication...