"It is fear but it is also my reality at this point."
No it is not reality. You can change that "reality". So run down the numbers. She filed and is ready to go with the D. That's what you're afraid of. The sooner you get over your fear, the better. As a suggestion, maybe go running or something very physical to boost your adrenaline levels before calling. It'll keep you in a much calmer place.
But again it's your call. All of the second-guessing is in your head. You have to be stronger than her. Be strong in you and believe that you can overcome this. You keep asking what you should be doing. Well this is first and foremost. Build yourelf back up.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
