Here I am all fired up and my H just text me - not good. I just lit into his As*. whoops.

H worked back "home" in Illinois where all of our family and oldest and dearest friends live. Every single fing time he works home and spends time with all of the people who love "us" and don't want us to get a divorce, he gets "inspired" to be with me. ARGGGGGG!!!! Not a good day to get "inspired" with me. this was the text conversation:

H: (name of his good buddy)is trying so hard to keep us together.He really wants us to move back. It is really inspiring.

Me: so u r inspired to be with me because ur friend wants us to be together, but when I ask that we stay together u just can't right now....but please wait 4 me....be my back up plan in case it doesn't work out wtih my girlfriend who i love sooooo much? whatever. Fing bullsheot.

H: Didn't mean for it to come out that way TAMF.

Me: i know H - u never mean to hurt me, yet u do. continuously.i have to tell u it is getting pretty fing old. everytime you go home u r "inspired" to stay with me. you call me more,text me more, want to have sex with me, make plans for the future, YET nothing ever fing happens. i am sick to death of it. I am NOT A FING PLAN B.

H: ok

Should have ignored him, ignored his text, but GD I am pissed. Today was not the day to get "inspired"!!!!!!!! I am inspired to run my foot up his nether region.

(String of really horrible bad words inserted here)

Breathe in breathe out...yikes this is not me. I don't like this person I am today. So you know what? I am going to log off and go put my phone back on vibrate.


TAMF
m:41
xh:41
T: 20
M: 15
D: 16
D: 14
Bomb dropped: 7/3/10
separated: 7/15/10
H moved in to new apt. with OW: 7/1/11
divorced: 8/26/12