H in crisis and self medicating with OW

[nicole8]

Journaling: h has been home almost six weeks. This is a new record. I still find myself second guessing most of what he says and does. I try to not let it show. I'm just trusting and trying to be the wife I would want if I was him.

The h and I are communicating and having more fun together than we have in a really long time. He does still seem to be struggling with motivation in his life in general. He still says that he can't get motivated or get out of the way of himself. No comments though about being unsure of our marriage, if he shOuld be living at the house, etc. This is new and refreshing.

We are nearing the sale of our house and purchase of the new house. It is stressful but we both seem to be working together very well on this. Sort of like "old times" but better.

I do have more hope today than ever. I still love my h more than ever and he has asked me a couple times..."do you still love me"? It's like he can't believe it and doesn't think he deserves it.

Still going day by day and trying to not think of the past just look to the future. H is at the dr again today. He thought the appointment was a waste of his time last time. He went again today though, which surprised me. I'm hopeful that he gets something positive from it.