Having a really hard time...

[what next?]

I really don't think I can call her yet. Just reading an email from her was enough for me to break down last week so at least I am better than I was then lol. But talking on the phone would be really tough still.

Do I reply and just talk about how great Houston is? How should I reply?

My instinct is to say "Everything is awesome except that I have this weird hole in my soul where you used to be" lol

I am just torn between acting like I'm doing great and letting her feel like she did what was best for both of us somehow...