what can I say...I am eternally driven to men? who the F knows?! Maybe it is the fact that I am craving sex? Never in my life have I been without, and to be honest it occupies a lot of my brain right now. I think about sex all of the time.
TMI???
At least I am honest. I want sex!!!! I feel like I am dying without it.
But I have never been a promiscuous woman. Ever. So I don't want to become one, and I won't.
So I flirt. minor sexual satifaction, but it helps.
Can you girls just allow me this?? I am so deprived.
You say that my happiness is wrapped up in the idea of a man. I say that I am completely capable of living alone with my girls, working my as* off everyday, contributing to my community in ways that others have never even thought of, paying my bills, cleaning my house, being a wonderful loving friend. I can do all of this, because I am doing this. And if I have to do this alone for the rest of my life?...
Well that is really sad.
There is NOTHING wrong with the fact that I LOVE being in a relationship. LOVE IT. It brings me happiness plain and simple.
You guys can bash me as much as you want, but I can be alone - I JUST DON'T WANT TO!
when we are asked over and over - WHAT DO YOU WANT TAMF? WHAT DO YOU WANT?
I want a loving relationship. Perferably with my H, but I am beginning to seriously think that is a lost cause. And if it is? I will find someone else. that is who I am, trying to cover that up, pretend like I can FIND a way to be perfectly "happy" alone is rediculous.
Like I said, I can do all of this SHEOT alone forever and still have fun in life...but if I want to be HAPPY, I will want to share my life with someone I love.
Ok my friends...I am feisty today...bring it!! LOL!!!!!
TAMF m:41 xh:41 T: 20 M: 15 D: 16 D: 14 Bomb dropped: 7/3/10 separated: 7/15/10 H moved in to new apt. with OW: 7/1/11 divorced: 8/26/12
