Girlie or not. Your post brought tears to my eyes (and I'm not saying this for effect).
My IC said something similar to what you are saying. I think it makes a lot of sense. I carry a lot of guilt for the situation I find myself in and guilt for pushing my wife into an EA. I also feel guilt for messing up. I have got to stop hating myself and for feeling unworthy of my w's love. I feel like because of my actions I am not good enough for her and she deserves betters. When in reality, she is perfectly happy with me. You are right I need to accept who I am and forgive myself. A long time ago, once during a fight, I grabbed my wife by the shoulders. It wasn't really major, but it was the first time I'd done anything remotely physical. I hated myself for that and I couldn't get over it. Then I realized that I could never allow my wife to forgive me, if I couldn't forgive myself first. Once I did, I was able to get over it and move on. You just reminded me of what I need to do. Thanks.
As far as the MC, the plan was to have them more frequently but fate is messing with is. We had 2 in mid-December. Then because of the holidays, our MC could meet with us until mid-Jan. We had to cancel 2 sessions the last 2 Fridays because of a sick kid and weather.
Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. --Jean Jacques Rousseau.
