((((Antonia))))

I cried the whole way through this thread.

I,too, have had the thought: The world doesn't make sense any more to me".

I believe in: "Let Go and Let God"

You are emerging and it is beautiful. Like a perfect rosebud emerging into a gorgeous rose. Every day brings hope and renewal and options galore!!!

I also used this opportunity to re-invent "Me". My changes are amazing and I would not trade the lessons learned for anything I can think of. I am proud of what I accomplished all by myself, H may have been the trigger but without the bomb I would still be depressed and miserable and wallowing in self pity.

Our H's see this and will continue to love us. They are running from everything in their lives to find a small corner of happiness. Love endures and as hard as they try they can't run from that. They will live with doubts and regrets and if or every time they see us (I have a son with mine, it's a bit harder to avoid)they will be reminded of the pain, regret and doubt for the rest of their days.

To live well is the sweetest revenge.

We Will Move On.....We are strong and courageous, we will survive this!!!

Sanderika


ME48/H48MLC
T 33y
M 28y
S16
OW 8/7/05
Bomb 8/16/05
Sep 9/05
H f'd D 10/3/08
D pp'd 1/20/09,7/24/09,12/4/09
D dismissed 2/5/10
H served me D papers again 9/4/10
D dismissed 9/26/11