Just woke up again...having a real tough time this morning. Am I the only one that dreams about this too??? I can't get peace when I do sleep! It hits you sometimes that this is REAL! Sounds crazy I know...of course I know its real, but it hits me so hard that it sends me into a crying wreck.
I tell myself to get control of my emotions. That GOD has it all under control. Let go and let GOD....but, it hurts like hell. When I think of HOW he did this...over the phone while I was sick and 2 days before Christmas! Then my MIL posts on FB the pics from Christmas....there he is smiling an posing w/family! Ive never not spent Christmas w/them....
While I was by myself in my apartment crying. When my Mom got here after a 5 hour drive. I couldnt even function..
It feels like there is no hope...that he is REALLY done. How does someone go from being real sweet to just cut you off? I guess I just don't have it in me to do that to someone. I'm just not wired that way. Even if I didnt love them anymore.
Keep you words of wisdom coming folks....I need them! I'm trying so hard...Telling myself to detach now! I pray GOD gives us all peace and comfort.
Me: 40 H: 39 M: 17 yrs - Together 18 1/2yrs No kids Seperated: May 18, 2006 EA/Poss PA with OW for 6 months prior to leaving. 2nd Bomb dropped: Dec. 23, 2010
