My W dropped the bomb nearly 3 years ago. Has she talked about our M or R? No. So there I said it.
Release your expectations. She will open up when she WANTS to. Not because you want her to. they are her feelings so you need to acknowledge that.
You continue to say that her greetings might be "fake". That's your interpretation. You don't know why she says or does what she's doing any more than she can figure out why you're doing what you're doing. Mind reading.
You're going out for you not for her. So why are you "expecting" a response? The first thing you need to realize is that there's a reason why it's called a rollercoaster. The WAS will be on a constant up and down wave of emotions. The key is to not get caught up in them whether they are good or bad. You stay consistent. There will be times where she will be nice and the W of old, then 10 minutes later, something will happen to set her off.
It's NOT your fault. They are her issues. You have a choice. You either ride on the rollercoaster with her and get dragged along for the ride, or you step out of it and let her ride it alone. When you do the latter, you get to see the whole picture rather than the drama.
Also, that part about God. You don't put the faith that God will get you our W back. You TRUST Him to show you the path that is the right one. It is still your W's decision to determine what path she needs to take.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.