I'm quite new and not too sure where to post my questions so I hope I got it right. I have posted my story in another thread.
I have some burning questions and was hoping for some answers.
My H has left from one day to the next 4 months ago. Hasn't been home since. Whenever we've seen each other to talk about us and the marriage, I got quite emotional, cried a lot, asked him for another chance, promised to change etc etc.
He obviously wasn't interested.
The more time went by and the more time I had to read on MLC and see things a bit clearer, the more I understand how my behaviour is not helping.
I saw him on Tuesday for another chat. After that, I emailed him to say that "I was now ok with the separation and I just wanted him to know that" and that "we can now both get on with our lives"
I did that after reading in the forum and realising that I can't continue to beg and cry.
I also said that "if he wanted to see me for dinner some time or just for a chat, not about 'us' but just as friends then he would know where to find me"
I am now TERRIFIED that I've made a mistake. It feels like I'm letting him go when all I want is to hold him tight. It feels like I'm giving him any excuse to do what he wants. I'm so scared. As far as I know there is no OW yet (just major issues re his adult daughter) but I wouldn't be surprised if that came next.
It just all feels so wrong. I would love to get some feedback on this. Thank you.
ps. I should also say I haven't had a reply from him to my email where normally he replies real quick.
