What a rollecoaster for you, with a great ending! I remember you since the early days I posted here. I was so mad at your H reading all the things he put you guys through...
I've been reading something about the brain and the way it is sructured trying to udnerstand all my feelings regarding H's infidelity. I will find the link and post it on my thread, it makes sense and I think it would help you understand the insecurities you are facing. Stay strong K