Well maybe we ought to define what joy is. Joy is an exhuberant, big thing for me. Everything seems brighter, sharper, more defined. You feel your heart and your being expand, you smile easily, you feel weightless, free.
Don't get me wrong, I can take pleasure in little things, I laugh at silly exchanges like the one you describe. I do smile easily. Simple things like a hot bath give me that "ahhhh! I needed this, relaxed" feeling. I enjoy what life can offer me and I do take time to care for myself. You know - massage ( because I need touch) pedicures/manicures, treating myself to premium chocolate once in a while. Doing a physical activity with my kids or nephew. Taking a girls night out ( there have been no other types of "nights out" for me.) Taking a nap if I need to and the time alone is there.
Joy though...elusive for me anyway and to be truthful last time I felt that way was when my children were born.
BITS Me-51, WAS-52 Kids 2 M-26yrs, H.left 2009, 2 more Bomb drops, Reconnection spring 2013 Change is inevitable, personal growth is a choice. Love is a action and choice you make, every day.
