"Question for you, Denver, on your R.... how do you know that you want your W back because of her and not because your ego is hurt from her leaving you?"
What a great question! I actually started asking myself this question today. Truth is the fear she has shared with me are the same fears I have can we trust again?
Can I trust her?
Can I forgive her for causing this pain?
Can I look at her again and feel anything?
If she does come back will she leave again?
What if I do all the wrong things? Will she leave again? What if she comes back and I am the one that checks out because of the resentment that would develop?
I asked myself these questions today. Truth is I have no idea but I believe it is a risk worth taking. I suppose if she has had an opportunity to reflect and see things my way the same way I have tried to look at the situation her way that would be called progress. I suppose I could not fully answer that until I have healed completely.
One thing is for certain, I feel and see things differently today than I did a few months ago. I am sure some of my BITS brothers would agree with that statement. We have grown because of this that was our step in the right direction.
