I honestly think he is not able to let go and is trying to get me to stay friendly. Well, it won't happen. It can't happen. It's too dangerous and just holds me back from getting over him/past this.
I'm sticking to my guns this time, for my own peace of mind. Until or unless he is done with OW AND has control over his issues and/or is seeking help to grow and learn about his mistakes, I can't have him in my life.
I feel really good about this. I actually feel a sense of closure. I think all this time I had it wrong and figured he'd give me closure or not, and I think the ball has always been in my court and I didn't know it.
You and me girlfriend...we are in the same friggin spot arnt we? We just need to keep telling ourselves this over and over. I KNOW how hard it is - but we are making progress.
TAMF m:41 xh:41 T: 20 M: 15 D: 16 D: 14 Bomb dropped: 7/3/10 separated: 7/15/10 H moved in to new apt. with OW: 7/1/11 divorced: 8/26/12
