His behaviour will always make me think , but my plan is not letting him get into my head and forcing my actions as a result. I'll follow the advice to believe nothing I hear him say and only 50% of what he does.
I'm GAL and he's noticed in a big way, i'll make sure I always look my best, that i'm always busy and do everything with a smile on my face, I'll be mysterious and make him wonder. I'll be the type of woman that drew him to me in the first place.. i know i changed over the years and I'm doing a 180 to find that woman again.
I won't engage in R talk or any talk that will lead to a heated discussion and if I feel the talk is getting more serious I'll walk away first and go read, watch tv or leave the house.
I know it's much to early to read into any positive signs and he's not even moved back in yet. I know he's desperate and he needs me and that will be in the forefront of my mind always. I need him too but I refuse to show my weakness.
I know this is going to be perhaps the hardest thing I've ever done especially because I love him but don't trust him and I don't trust that OW is completely out of his life romantically. She was a friend of mine so I know quite a bit about her and how she behaves and she won't give up that easy, I mean she got him in the first place.
he was never paying me his share because he wasn't living in the house and refused to pay ME but living there I'm sure he will, he's just being stubborn on that issue. BUT if he doesn't then I have family that can help me out as well as a small financial safety net but he's unaware of that.
My first mistake was not getting guidance before I acted, I was impulsive and I ended up making BIG mistakes. I will stop and think before I act, I'll practice all the techniques I'm learning on here and make a rational choice before I act as I don't want to reverse my progress.
I have an amazing support group of friends and family I can turn to for support if it gets too much at times as well as the support from the DB forums.
I believe I can do this. I just need to remember that I'm stronger than I think I am.
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"Good memories tell you that your past was worth it, bad ones tell you that you were strong enough to go on"
