2 years later it's still not getting easier

[whitneypinch]

Ya, me too.

I have noticed her being nicer to me since I have pulled back.

Ultimately I don't think anything will ever change. She lives in such an extreme world of fun, wealth, etc. that she will never really "feel" the emptiness of any of this.

Last night my daughter said she has only seen mommy cry once. I guess my 6 year old son told her he hatted her. I am sure my son was physically exhausted and had something taken away from him by mommy. It's the only time he would ever say something like that. He loves his mom very much.

I don't think my X seems to be effected in any negative way at all through this. In fact she has a much more fun, carefree life now.