If you don't share with him your thoughts...he won't really know you. You are the only one who can choose to share yourself with him.
You spent so long walking on eggshells that it is only natural to be still recovering, rebuilding, patching. That doesn't mean things will be like this forever, or even very long. It's a phase.
You are also grieving. That changes your perspective on a lot of things. But the sunshine is still there.
Was your comment about sex good or bad? I mean, twice in the week isn't nothing lol.
Do you want to do the remodeling? It's great to see him planning your future together, taking care of you and the kids, really being there. It's so amazing how far you guys have come!
As for your weight, it's good that you are conscious of it and not getting up 15 or 20 kilos before you pay attention, but you are going through a stressful time of your life, so don't be too hard on yourself. You are always beautiful.
(((Maria)))
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
