My H hasn't paid the mortgage this month, and I'm not sure what other bills he is planning on not paying??
I had a meeting with the liason with the state attorney's office and she and I agreed H needs therapy for depression and stress, not jail time. This is his first offense, and she says that for most guys this is a huge wakeup call.
I have some friends that are completely draining me, telling me that they know of this case or that where the husband comes back to kill the W, but I don't think this is my H. And if it is, I can't worry about it. I have too much to do and I'm already exhausted from thinking about other things. He has been very cautious in not contacting me--I haven't heard from his dad or anyone and the only way he contacts me is through his L.
I think if he was planning to harm me he wouldn't be cautios--at all!
He wants me to get him all the info on the taxes for 2010. I don't understand why he can't do it--all I did in the past was wait for things to come in the mail like W2s and statements from the mortgage company telling us how much tax we paid, things like that. He is now getting his mail forwarded to him at his new place, so I don't know why he wasted $ telling his L this and then it goes through my L, so this is probably $100 to tell me something ridiculous.
He also wants to know if I am attending the concert my S will be playing in on the 7th of Feb, because if I'm going he cannot. Yes, of course I am going--sheesh.
I have been reading Job, and a verse really jumped out at me this a.m. :
"Blessed is the man whom God corrects, so do not despise the discipline of the Almightly"
I feel in my marriage I was afraid of my H and that I built a life around living in fear. Now, although painful a lot of the times, there is a correction going on that will ultimately lead to good. I do have a lot of joy in my life--friends are amazing, I'm able to find humor in a lot of my sitch, and I have a lot of compassion for my H too--he is on his own journey and I see that he is really a sad person.
I will have to rebuild my life and it's very challenging--downright terrifying at the moment actually. People are all too willing to tell you how bad the job market is. I just have to trust that there will be something out there for me when the time is right!
